The Year Of The Kaylias?

And another year draws to a close. Nope, I won't look back on it. I don't want to. And not because everyone says, looking back is for wallowers, because, I believe that sometimes looking back is what helps us move forward eventually. Sometimes. The reason I won't look back, though is because, it wasn't that awesome. Not like my 2005 summary, anyway. 2008 was hardly a year I want to relive, in reality or on paper. Except for summer '08 and a few events thereafter, that is. Now THAT was awesome! Apart from that, though...lets just say, I just can't wait to wake up from the nightmare of '08 with the new year's alarm! Yes, THAT bad.

Now, I've never been this excited to usher in the next 365 and a quarter days of my life! And this time, I plan on planning it out a whole lot better. I'm picturing my slate of deeds up with the Lord to be wiped clean, or his MS word page to be backspaced entirely, whichever you prefer. [Though, somehow I've always seen God as more of a simple traditionalist, mocking our attempts at advancing our technology, for no real need, while he times our D-Day with great sorrow.] Aah, anyhoo, I drift. So, yes, my slate/document wiped clean and the heaviness above me replaced with pure oxygen of the mind and soul and on the 1st, I wake up and take it all in! My to-do list finally given a fresh take, and I may just get it all done this time! Actually, scratch that! I WILL get it all done this time! The same people, same dreams, same world...but, a new approach, new chance, and new beginning. Now, that's a NEW year!

This whole concept, though...Overhyped, mayhaps? Just a change in the date on the calendar? Well lets look at it this way, then. Some people are going through a real bad phase in life and if there was no clear cut definition of time and markings on a calender to help arrange moments in slots, then the phase would seem to have no end and psychologically, it's exhausting. However, drop in that whole, "it's a new year, a new start and a new hope" and you got yourself a billion happier people! They see it as a chance to start afresh, continue with the new, and just leave out all the rest [Linkin Park reference NOT intended.]! So, don't hate, appreciate, foo! If you don't see the point, then just continue like it's any other new month or day, don't ruin it for those people who find significance or another reason to partay all night long! xD

I'm really looking forward to the days after tonight. I mean, I've really got a super long life list or bucket list and I intend on ticking them ALL off as soon as possible! I also found that I have been happiest towards the end of this year. I've had a great last week or so and feel on top of the world. Resurrected almost. I've rediscovered my purpose, aim and plan in life and am ready to chase after my dreams again! It's a wonderful feeling, getting geared up to chase after your dreams. I'm sure we've all been through it at least once in our lives, yes? I hope so at least. But, if you haven't, make sure you experience it soon!

At first, upon realization of your ambitions and what you really want at that point, it's this feeling of total calmness, serenity and peacefulness with yourself, your life, and no longer is there any hatred, disappointment or irksome source anywhere! You're suddenly liberated and feel almost spiritually higher than everyone else around you. Like you know something awesome that they don't, but they just wish they knew! Then the insane amount of adrenaline kicks in! You can't wait to just race on home and get out your notepad and write strategies away furiously or to talk to that person you share that special bond with! The problems you had yesterday are no longer an issue, 'coz you have bigger and better things ahead of you! =) What follows as a result is loads of insomnia and the need to get a notepad and note down every possible way in which you can make said dream a reality! Your heart beats faster, your mind is minus half the mental blocks you had earlier and the drive you have is more than you knew you could ever have! Alas, the sun does rise and eventually you're gonna have to sleep, 'coz enthusiasm will only get you so far, but yeah, you can wake up 'coz now you're no longer supposed to JUST dream. =)

Now, I don't know know if this is a resolution or not, but I know I don't see it as one. For I don't believe in the fact that one needs a New Year to make one. The fact that I found new meaning near the New Year could be coincidence, or not. But, what I do know is, the start of something new and fresh, like your first day of school or work, has that effect on you automatically. It's a combination of nerves and excitement. You pack your bag with new stationary and books or you wear a new suit and get a new briefcase, and you leave your house/enter those school or office doors, with a renewed outlook and the hope that this is a chance to do things better.

So, as for this year being The Year Of The Kaylias? Well, one can only hope and strive towards it, lets see how it all pans out! ;) Good morning everyone, it's SHOW TIME! |-)

Blogtrack: The Resolution - Jack's Mannequin

Yes, I love JM, so sue me! =P

[You will find inner-peace and living in the past isn't what you want to do for too long, so, you'll soon find your way, just give yourself the chance and that breakthrough, be it 'coz of the new year or any other reason, just do it! Good luck, everyone! ;)]

Merry Christmas & A Happy New Year to you all! *<<<-| (Yes that's my personalized christmas tree emoticon - Copyright Kaylias! I know it's horizontal and all but, come on, I tried, and I'm rather proud of it either way! Lol xD)

Note: Sorry for the delay in posting this, it was supposed to be up by the 1st. But, had some issues with blogger while publishing this. So, yeah. =)